This Is Going Well...

Today was... A day.

I'm in the big choir at my school, and we're leaving on Wednesday for a competition in Orlando, Florida. 

We'll also be doing an exchange concert at Stetson University, 

eating dinner at Medieval Times, 

going to Universal Studios with a parkhopper pass to include Islands of Adventure 

AND The Wizarding World Of Harry Potter, 

Kennedy Space Center,

Cocoa Beach and Ron Jon's, 

and Disneyworld, with parkhopper passes to include the Animal Kingdom 

and Epcot. It's gonna be pretty cool!

Also, Elsa and Anna will be in Switzerland every two hours... :D

However, as a choir, I don't feel like we're ready for this competition... It's gonna be sort of an adventure.

But this is about today in my choir class. My teacher basically lectured the alto section (my section) about the "power struggle" we're apparently having and over-singing and how no one person can carry the section and it has to be a team effort, and that we better figure ourselves out. She also said that she wouldn't single anyone out in front of the choir, but she WOULD set up a meeting at a later date with the offending student(s) and their parents.

 Pause.

 Maybe this doesn't seem like a big deal, but to me it was 

HUGE.

Music means more to me than almost anything in the world, and I take it very seriously. And my director's comments worry me because I am LOUD. And I know that. And I know that sometimes I have a problem with oversinging... But I work very hard not to, and I don't think I have been... But I can't always tell.

And according to our director, there's also animosity in the also section, and that shows in the way we sing... I guess we all secretly hate each other or something? I dunno... It bums me out, because I honestly like all the girls in my section- they're AWESOME.

But, the thing is, I've already had problems this year... Been called into the director's office once and lectured... I left in tears. It was pretty stupid actually, a misunderstanding with my section leaders that they felt they needed to talk to our director about instead of resolving it with me.

So I'm worried that our director thinks I want to be section leader, and I don't respect my section leaders, and that I oversing. I'm worried I'm one of the problems in my section. And that TERRIFIES me. And I left that class this afternoon almost in tears, because I'm that worried.

And this was all compounded by show choir rehearsal this afternoon. She was getting on a group of us for singing a note wrong, and the whole time she was staring directly at me, because I was wrong two weeks ago. But I've fixed it! And I know I'm singing it right!

So I think I'm on the Bad List this year, and I'm so worried... Because she's kicked people out of choir before... And it would absolutely devestate me if that happened. Eeek.

On the plus side, Florida! ... Ha. :/