These last few months have been rough. I haven't been motivated to do anything. I have been falling behind in all my classes. I haven't been reading my scriptures. I sleep through sacrament meeting. I will blame that on the time (1:30 is naptime, okay?). I haven't wanted to do ANYTHING.
But I am doing better.
I've been praying. I've been trying to come back.
And conference happened and it was amazing. And then I wrote this poem for this project for my religion class, and reading it back over, it hit me to the heart that this is true and that I'm where I ought to be.
I still have a lot of work to do. But I'm happier than I have been in a long time. So, for your enjoyment, nonexistent readers, here is this poem I wrote that is currently everything to me. It's not a good poem, technically. It's not well-executed and the metre is a disaster. But it's everything to me.
It's all true. And God loves me.
Truth
Look at these truths that I know
All that has been restored
Now in these latter days
In the glory of the Lord
There's much I don't understand
And much that I've yet to learn
But firm in this faith I stand
As I feel my spirit burn
I know that God exists
Because a young man said a prayer
And in a brilliant answer
God and His Son were there
I know that God exists
I've seen His hand in my life
And when I needed help
He saved me every single time
I know about my Saviour
Of His mission and His life
And the plan of salvation
That sets everything aright
I know about my Saviour
From the Book of Mormon's words
That He came to all His people
Here and on other worlds
I've learned of the atonement
Of salvation and of grace
I cannot comprehend them
But I know that they're in place
That through Christ's great atonement
Comes salvation through God's grace
And that one day, the plan fulfilled
I'll see Him face to face
And it will not be a meeting
Between some unknown god and me
But instead come with the feeling
That I'm where I'm meant to be
For when I say Heavenly Father
The words are literal and true
I know that I'm His daughter
This was restored too
A child of the
divine
In a family eternal
Because the bonds that we make here on earth
Are far more than superficial
This truth came
through the prophet
Through that young man who had prayed
Who was called to lay the foundation
Of this work in these last days
It's through God's
holy priesthood
Eternal promises are sealed
On the Susquehannah and in Kirtland
These keys were once again revealed
The authority to
baptise
Heal the sick and
raise the dead
To call down blessings from on high
Is on the earth again
And the authority
to bind
On earth and in
heaven
To seal families for all time
O wondrous truth is given!
And all these
things I know
And I know what I
one day will see
A child of Heavenly Parents
As they are, I too will be
So many truths
restored
Since that day in 1820
All that means so much to me
What shapes my eternity
And I know all of
this is true
Although I wasn't there
Because I have felt my spirit burning
Because God has heard my prayer