Wait, What?

I was registering for classes for next fall,

And I think if I do my life right I could graduate next year?

Except for that I don't really want to.

Because I was planning on two more years?

And I have this minor I want to work in...

But man, if I didn't.

I just.

What. Even.

Rant : II

Just here because I can't keep saying the same things to my roommates and friends.

I mean, I can.

But I don't like to.

I think I'm gonna tell you.

I think I have to.

I need some level of certainty.

So there's gotta be some sort of, "hey,,,so I'm kinda into you? I've caught the feelz. would love to spend more time with you, go on more dates? umm, no pressure, just wanna know where you at."

And then if it's a no, fine, I can move on with my life and stop dRiViNg mYsElF iNsAnE.

If it's a maybe, okay, we see what happens.

I think I'm gonna say something.

Because when we're talking, I feel like it's there.

And your smile kills me.

And your kindness is extraordinary.

And I really, really, would like a shot at this.

A shot with you.

No one's gonna make it happen for me.

So I'm gonna tell you.

Dinner Party : Postlude

So I didn't die and no one got salmonella, so I guess I did okay.

Tuesday I don't have class until one, but I work an early job. So I got off work at ten and set to cooking.

I had promised Elb I'd make whatever she wanted, and she requested funeral potatoes and chicken. Funeral potatoes are I guess any variant of cheesy potato casseroles, so nicknamed because, well, we make them for funerals a lot out here in the west.

That morning, I made two pans of funeral potatoes and then went to class.

Came home and set about making my last pan of funeral potatoes- another kind, because I like variety.

Then on to the chicken. I bought chicken breasts and made a rub - brown sugar, paprika, onion, garlic, salt, pepper, and baked those. I had a veggie tray and grapes. Elb was bringing dessert and drinks.

And like, I was a little stressed out all day with the cooking, but at 6:15 when everything was starting to come together and the food was all set out and the table was clear and the floor was vacuumed, it was just such a satisfying feeling.

And then people started coming! I fed Elb and her friend, all my roommates, three of our friends but Kyv couldn't make it, mine and Elb's old roomie and her fiance, my older brother and Rle, and one of Elb's friends came but didn't eat and like, there were so so many people in my apartment but it was wonderful.

I really enjoy hosting, I think? Like, it was so wonderful to facilitate the joy that everybody had and to have people over and I LOVE that feeling.

Also, Elb got to meet everyone, which was fun.

And no one got salmonella, so I think I did okay.

And it was,,,so so fun.